Before and After

I have so many ideas that pop into my mind but the moment isn’t right to sit down and write. Can I think of any of those topics again when I have a sleeping child? NEVER. The topics I end up writing about are the ones that pop up again and again and I basically … More Before and After

Happy 40th Mr Loco

Today would have been Mr Loco’s 40th birthday. I am making a concentrated effort to not focus on what should have been. It is easy to fall down the rabbit hole of would have/could have/should have. Today I am trying to focus on honoring Mr Loco, appreciating every little way he continues to play an … More Happy 40th Mr Loco

Wedding Perfection: The Loco Edition

Our wedding was perfect. Perfect for us. Most people dream of elaborate weddings with loads of flowers, a dress full of lace, and a fine dining experience. They want to invite EVERYONE they know to celebrate them. There are centerpieces and photo booths. There are flower girls and wedding bands. Photographers. Videographers. Caterers. Clergymen. Wedding … More Wedding Perfection: The Loco Edition

Grief: It Sucks

I have written this blog post several times. I have deleted it several times as well. I have started over. I have edited. I have pieced together several different attempts. It always seems to be lighter or funnier in my head as I toss it around. It tends to be sad and angry as I … More Grief: It Sucks

Hello Baby Loco

Hello Baby Loco, My name is ________, and I was lucky enough to meet your dad Mr Loco around the same time you did. You were born into a neighborhood that is pretty special. Everyone that moves into this neighborhood has an opportunity to become part of the ______ St Family. Luckily for us, your … More Hello Baby Loco

I Love You Forever

I drove to work this morning and “I Love You Forever” by Jewel came up on random shuffle. I burst into tears. The drive to work is hard right now. It is quiet.There is time for reflection.  Mr Loco and I commuted to work together as often as possible. The exit to drop him off … More I Love You Forever